Home (or Quarantine) is Where the Heart is

Fun fact...I thought I knew what quarantine was. However, until you are given a one way key card and told if you leave your room, you will go to jail and pay up to SG$10k in fines, I don't think you REALLY understand what quarantine is. I understand some have understood this over the past 2 years, but for me it just hit me.

As I look out my 80 inch window of my hotel room (I keep a mini tape measurer in my purse, doesn't everybody?) feeling down that I can't be outside, it hit me. Am I the same person inside the hotel room as I am outside? The answer is YES! So why feel down? I have everything I truly need to make me happy within my heart. Wow! How distracted I was hiding from my true heart. I know, you don't have to tell me...I am the ONLY one that feels this way, right?

Here I am writing a blog about a self-love journey and I just scratched the surface today of what it really means. I knew part of the story as you read in the "About" page of this website. I knew that new places were always a way to uncover more of myself. Which is why I LOVE getting on a plane. I always discover a cooler side of myself. But today was different. If I need all the flashy things the world has to offer in order to be happy, I really don't love myself...fully (trust me I get it, I'm the ONLY one that feels this way).

After this realization, the first thing I did was make a DECISION. I REFUSE to be the same person tomorrow that I was yesterday. I HAVE to constantly transform, because the light within me is growing restless and tired and I just figured out why. You know that feeling, right?

So, I sat with my flaws - all of them...chapped lips, large thighs, blemished skin and just sat with it and accepted it. I can't expect someone else to love me more than I love myself (well of course except the God that made me). Suddenly, I didn't feel so bad about myself. This hotel room didn't seem too bad either.

I know you're lightyears ahead of me, but just in case you haven't done so lately, love yourself - today - now - no excuses.

Proverbs 19:8